Chapter 1: You Better Forget About Me
Chapter 1: You Better Forget About Me
They say that first kiss taste like a lemon. But for me, it was not. It was coffee.
I even know it's brand. it was Goergia coffee that she often drink, and when we kiss, her lips was extremely sweet.
Her name was Nakadou Ayane or Ayanee. It happened when I was in 6th grade and she was 4 years older than me and was attending in 1st year of highschool.
It was already 4 years since that and I can still remember it like yesterday. For example, the postcard in Ayanee's room was a "Chagall" style painting named "The Brides of the Eiffel Tower"
Ayanee's lips was soft, warm, and pleasantly felt good, like I was in a cloud nine made out of coffee.
When I open my eyes, Ayanee was also looking at my eye. Our eyes locked as I noticed her double eyelids and her thick and long eyelashes that it made me feel like I was a princess in a fantasy world.
And she was also kinda erotic that time, wearing a worn out clothes that has sweet fragrances on it. Also comparing her to the other girls to her age, her breast is surprisingly bigger.
As our lips parted away, what I felt was between dismay and happiness.
I thought that was the end of it but a few seconds later she kissed me once again, moving back and forth. Of course as a elementary schooler I didn't know what it was.
When my lips are not connected with Ayanee I was like a child that got abandoned, but when we are connected I felt being filled with comfort and bliss.
As the angle of Ayanee's lips changed, I felt different kinds of emotions like nostalgia, comfort, happiness, and depress that filled my heart.
I wonder how much time has passed?
After that, Ayanee parted her lips and smiled, revealing her white teeth.
I've never seen a girl who smiles like that so it made me feel happier than the kiss.
"How was it?" She asked.
What was it once again? I don't remember what I replied back then.
The fact that I can't remember it means I did something cringe or embarrassing to make myself forget about it.
I think I said, "It was awesome." or maybe "Your lips was soft." Then we talk about it for a while then she turned serious and said "don't forget about this."...? No that was not what she said. I think it was "Hey Mik-kun, You better forget about me, Okay?"
And it's already been 4 years since that, and I still haven't able to do it.
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After that I never seen Ayanee once again.
The last time I saw her was before my junior high entrance exam. When she was tutoring me.
Even the "Nakadou Party" that's being held twice a year, in Obon and in New year was ceased to exist. The reason of it because my granpa, Nakadou Genichiro fallen ill.
Our granpa was cool and affectionate to us. Despite being heavy smoker and loves fatty foods, he was healthy mainly because he was rich and was able to hire nutritionist and fitness instructor, but his body finally given up to his age before his hundredth birthday.
Normally, before you die, you want someone on your family on your side but granpa was different. He don't like showing weakness to us and wants to continue being as cool granpa. That's probably the reason why, he didn't hold Nakadou Party.
I was told that he died last year, most likely while being with his young partners. I don't know what's the reason how he died, maybe heart attack? I'm in last year of my middle school that time and I can imagine him die like that.
He was quite wild old man and I remember him when he was drunk saying to me, "I can arrange woman for you, if you just ask, Mikitaka." BTW, I'm 5th grade that time. Absolutely moronic, suggesting something like that for a elementary schooler.
Going back to the topic. Yeah, haven't seen Ayanee since that time.
I actually know her Line I.D and I could just contact her but I didn't do it. Why? Because she said "You better forget about me."
Also contacting her may actually lead to notice that I haven't forgotten about it and in fact it was true.
So what's the most natural way to contact a 4 years older girl, whom I didn't have normal interaction with?
Just to tell you, I don't have the skill of normal junior schoolers that can send emojis and stuff saying "How's it going?" Well, I cannot anymore.
Because Ayanee left chat room. In case you don't know, when the other user left the chat room, you'll receive a message "The user has left the chat." In other words, she must have deleted her old line account because she bought a new phone or something - she really lost contact with me.
I could actually contact her directly by asking her mom or my aunt plus I have reasonable reason to contact her. I mean we're cousin, but I didn't do it.
It's not like I lost interest in her.
It's more like the kiss happened between us can't leave it my mind off. Like what will happened if I push her to the bed while we were kissing? What if I stayed contact with her, will she still kissed me like she did back then? or maybe Ayanee just maybe, like me back then? My mind can't help to asked these kind questions.
But I'm sure, Ayanee kissed me out of whim. She maybe already forgotten about it and I'm here, still overthinking about it like a cringe creep.
I want to die and get bought back to life with that shame from me get forgetten. The more I think how cringe creep I am, the less the confidence that I want to meet her.
Conclusion: I will not contact her.
So in 1st year of my highschool, I decided to date one of my classmates. I don't know if I can date anyone, but I'll still do it.
I don't know if I'm only doing this to forgot Ayanee but youth is part highschool, so there's no reason for me to not do it.
Then I found a girl that I thought was the best for me.
But at the same time, I meet Ayanee once again and she's sophomore in college now.
Can't promise can do this TL every week but I think this series deserve TL so I did it.
