Chapter 3: Daily Life 6 "I-I can't sleep!" I've been lying still in my futon, but because I can't sleep I finally sat up and opened my eyes. The room was pitch black. Thanks to the moonlight shining through the small gap in the curtains, I gradually adapt from darkness. "I mean... it's no wonder I can't sleep. It's the day we we're attacked by that robber." I justified to myself in a mutter. Even now, just remembering it makes me tremble. Anger, fear... During the incident, my anger surpassed my fear, but now, fear takes the lead. I understand now, calmly, that my actions actually put Ayana in danger. It wasn't good move to talk to the robber who was so desperate. If Riku hadn't gotten naked...! "No, that's not it...! It's not about that guy or whatever." Thinking about Riku's body makes my face flush. It was the first time I had seen a man's body like that. I really saw it. All of i...
Chapter 1: Reunion 1 ───I can't take this anymore, I want to die. Spring of my second year in high school. I, Kuromine Riku, confessed to my childhood friend whom I had been close to since I was young──and was shockingly rejected me. Can you believe it? When we were in elementary school, we used to take baths together and sleep holding hands in the same bed. Even in middle school and high school, we didn't take baths together anymore, but we used to go to school together. We were always together, and people often treated us like a couple. By this point, anyone would be convinced of mutual feelings, right? At least, I was convinced. That's why I confessed to my childhood friend, coinciding with entering the second year of high school... But what was the result? "I'm sorry. Riku-chan, I actually only see you as a childhood friend not as opposite sex." What the hell! What's up with that! Not seeing me as the opposite sex, what's...
Prologue I don't deserve to live. I killed Kuromine-kun's family, tormented my own parents, and drove them to death. I am not a victim. I am the perpetrator. There hasn't been a day without being choked with guilt. Every breath feels suffocating. I keep recalling the moment of the accident and the image of my parents lifeless body, like Teru-teru Bozu. (TL: paper doll to which children pray for fine weather. Weathering with you, costume of the fmc lil brother.) Again and again... Just living is painful. Suddenly, I remember Kuromine-kun. Since the day he rescued me from the robbery, my life has been filled with sparkling and radiant days. Though it was only a brief period, living with Kuromine-kun given me a sense of fulfillment in life. Whenever I feel distressed, Kuromine-kun comes to my mind as a defense mechanism. My first love. My heart feels warm to the point of melting. And with these thoughts, a desire to kill myself arises. Repeate...